Wednesday, January 27, 2010





One happy little girl!!

Tonight I went to the grocery store before the cold weather hit. I went late so I would miss the crowd and I'm glad I did. I even got James his favorite snack. It's a little joke around here when someone goes to the store you are bring back something that they today James went for some medicine and brought be back some M&M's. I went tonight and brought back Oreo's..James' favorite. He's usually pretty stingy with them but tonight he shared one with Farrah and oh my goodness she loved it!

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Birthday Pictures!

Last week a friend took pictures for Farrah's birthday invitations and they turned out so cute!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

11 months!!

Really, only one month til my baby is a year old! Farrah you are getting so big so fast. You are one busy girl, oh my if someone would have only warned me ;).

What your up to these days...

Standing for a couple of seconds by yourself.

You have learned to take you socks, shoes and bows off. You do try to put them back on. When you take your socks off you will lift your foot and put your sock on bad the sock doesn't make it on.

You are wearing size 9 months, there a little big but your so tall. I think you could still wear some 3 months still.

You can say Hi, Dada, Nana, no no.

You can wave bye bye and give 5's.

You want nothing to do with baby language (we are working on it though).

Your favorite toys are balls.

You still sleep from 9pm to 9am.

You like to play chase. You can crawl really fast.

You LOVE other kids.

You want nothing to do with juice or a sippy cup.

You have the greatest laugh!!

I was thinking today about how this time last year and how we had no idea about how our life was about to change. You have truly changed our lives and we couldn't be more proud to be your mommy and daddy!

This is what happens when daddy gives you a bath.

I was trying to get some pictures of Farrah at 11 months and this is close to impossible the older she gets!

Attempt 1

Attempt 2

This will have to do!

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Fertility Specialist...

Monday James and I went to see a new fertility specialist. She was so amazing. I've been praying for months for peace when we met with the Dr. and I have to say I had so much peace...once I got there. She took us back to her office and talked with us for over and hour and just gave us her professional opinion and different options. She wanted to do an exam and blood work so we headed to the exam room and James and I were left alone for a minute and I just remember looking at him and seeing that it just wasn't me going through this process. So many times I have felt alone in this and God really opened my eyes to see that my husband had struggled just as much as I had and he had just as much pain as I did. Thank you Lord for opening my eyes, I really needed to see this situation through different eyes.

The Dr. came in and did a sonogram and it didn't take her two seconds to find a problem. She found that I had a fibroid tumor and this is the very reason I had been not able to get pregnant and the reason I had miscarried the two times before. I was surprised and relieved that she found something. We finally have an answer and a reason. The tumor is a little larger then a nickel and that's pretty large for your uterus (your uterus is about the size of a small apple) so we only have one option which is surgery but I don't expect it to be all that difficult. We are planning for it this summer. It's funny how a couple of years ago I would have been rushed to do the surgery and now that we have Farrah I don't feel rushed. I think I actually surprised James that I wanted to put the surgery off til this summer.

I'm just glad to finally have an answer and hope again. It's been a long time since I felt any hope about having children of my own. To tell you the truth I kinda gave up and just decided that we were not ment to have children of our own and was called to adopt our family and we were totally fine with that but now there is a renewed hope and a renewed healing...a healing heart and healing womb.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Girls just want to have fun!

Farrah doesn't usually wear me out but today...she is into everything! I try my best to let her play but at the same time not letting all the toys overcome the house. Today I was needing to get some stuff done and Farrah had freedom (with in limits of course). I was doing laundry, making baby food and taking care of Crew (I'm keeping this adorable little guy during the day) and turned around and Farrah had dumped all the water out of the dog bowl and I found her licking the dog food bowl, she tore up paper towels and then she had cleared all of her books off her shelf. I of course can only watch while I'm feeding Crew and laugh at her. She was having so much fun! I'm learning that it really is ok for Farrah to get her hands dirty and just have fun. How else is she going to learn?

Playing with the dog bowl.

Playing hide and seek!

My kitchen after Farrah.

After Farrah is done reading her books

All in all Farrah wore herself out and is taking a nap and it gives me a chance to pick everything up before her daddy gets home. This is such a fun age. Farrah is learning something new everyday and it is so much fun seeing the world through her little eyes.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Shoes, shoes and more shoes!

If you know me at all you know that I LOVE shoes!! Last year we played a game and one of the questions was for the husbands and it was "How many pairs of shoes does your wife own?" This is a scary question!! I don't really want James to know how many pairs of shoes I have. If he really knew he would its time for honesty. After James found out he just laughed! He knows my love for shoes. I have even bought shoes and tried to find an outfit to match the shoes..I know it's awful!

So I think I have passed my love of shoes onto my daughter. I think its great, James might be sending Farrah to counseling before high school(just kidding), if not Farrah then me! For Christmas my wonderful mother-n-law, Jean got Farrah the cutest boots I have ever seen and Farrah loves them. Everytime I put them on her feet Farrah just lights up and wants them off her feet so she can hold them and admire them. So now I find myself finding clothes for Farrah so she can wear these boots.

Aren't these adorable!!

Friday, January 8, 2010

New Year...New Me

I'm not usually all that big on new years resolution but this year I have really felt God put a couple of things on my heart.

After talking to a lot of new mommies we are all struggling with being a good mom. We are all moms no matter how you look at it. Some are stay at home moms and some are working moms...all in all we are ALL full time moms! I really feel like so many moms are attacking each other and comparing our children to each other. I'm a better mom than you cause I'm staying home or my kid can knows all of her colors and she 9 months old. I'll speak for myself but I'm just trying to survive the day! I want to raise my daughter to believe and love God with all of her heart and love her family and to be respectful to others and to be a good citizen and to know right from wrong and to make good decisions. I don't know about you but I'm not worried who's doing what I need to focus on being all that I can be and making the right decisions for my own family. I am so blessed to have both sets of mommy friends, to have stay at home moms and to have working moms. So this year I want to be a better mom, wife, daughter, sister and friend.

I also feel like God has been speaking to be about me being a better wife. As you know we instantly became parents back in February and I have dropped the wife card. The first couple of months I don't really remember, and that is really sad to me but it is what it is. I was trying to figure out how to balance being a new mom and a wife at the same time. I remember one day James came home to a crying wife and a crying baby. I was so stressed out about trying to do everything on my own. Trying to take care of Farrah, trying to clean the house, trying to cook dinner everyday. I was lucky to get a shower three times a week and I was so stressed out. Thank goodness I have a wonderful husband is is very caring and understanding. He came home and pretty much told me to stop everything and just enjoy our daughter. She will never be a month old so sit and hold her and enjoy her...and I did! So now the older Farrah is getting the more organized I am getting. All this to say is I will always be a mom but I was a wife first. Farrah will grow up and leave home one day and James will be here. I don't want to have to get to reknow my husband in 20 years. I want to stay on target with all of his interest and joys and his job. So I am making a pledge to have more one on one time with him and giving him my full attention. So many times I find myself sitting next to him and talking but in the back of my mind I'm thinking of all I need to get done. No more!!

And the last thing is just being a better person/Christian. I see so many people struggling everyday if its at the store, or on the street and I just walk on by. I want to become more of a blessing then just a looker.

So my new year resolution is different this year...yes I would love to lose weight, and be more organized and cook more but for this year I want to be a better me!

Thursday, January 7, 2010

All about friends

Farrah is getting to the age that she is recognizing kids. I love this stage! Everywhere we go she finds a kid and wants so badly to talk to them. She will smile real big and wave and get so excited. It's pretty sweet.

Earlier this week Farrah's friend, Madison came to play. Farrah woke up and was so excited to see Madi. Those two girls are so funny to watch together. Madison is 11 months older then Farrah and Farrah tries so hard to be like Madi. She tries to be where Madison is and follows her around everywhere she goes. One day Farrah you will be walking and talking and will be able to keep up with her. I think the sweetest thing is when they love on each other. Wide open mouth kisses and lots of hugs. It just makes my heart skip when I see these girls together.

Here are a couple of pictures of the girls together.

We went to a basketball game and Farrah wanted to sit next to Madison. I was trying to get a cute picture of them and after three times I got the funniest picture. For some reason Madison put her finger in Farrah's mouth and well I'll let the picture tell the rest of the story...

I love Madison's face!

I think these girls will be great friends!