Sunday, January 17, 2010

Fertility Specialist...

Monday James and I went to see a new fertility specialist. She was so amazing. I've been praying for months for peace when we met with the Dr. and I have to say I had so much peace...once I got there. She took us back to her office and talked with us for over and hour and just gave us her professional opinion and different options. She wanted to do an exam and blood work so we headed to the exam room and James and I were left alone for a minute and I just remember looking at him and seeing that it just wasn't me going through this process. So many times I have felt alone in this and God really opened my eyes to see that my husband had struggled just as much as I had and he had just as much pain as I did. Thank you Lord for opening my eyes, I really needed to see this situation through different eyes.

The Dr. came in and did a sonogram and it didn't take her two seconds to find a problem. She found that I had a fibroid tumor and this is the very reason I had been not able to get pregnant and the reason I had miscarried the two times before. I was surprised and relieved that she found something. We finally have an answer and a reason. The tumor is a little larger then a nickel and that's pretty large for your uterus (your uterus is about the size of a small apple) so we only have one option which is surgery but I don't expect it to be all that difficult. We are planning for it this summer. It's funny how a couple of years ago I would have been rushed to do the surgery and now that we have Farrah I don't feel rushed. I think I actually surprised James that I wanted to put the surgery off til this summer.

I'm just glad to finally have an answer and hope again. It's been a long time since I felt any hope about having children of my own. To tell you the truth I kinda gave up and just decided that we were not ment to have children of our own and was called to adopt our family and we were totally fine with that but now there is a renewed hope and a renewed healing...a healing heart and healing womb.

3 comments:

Misti said...

Jenn - I'm so happy to hear that you've found a Doctor that you are comfortable with and that seems to have found a reason for your not being able to get/stay pregnant. I will be praying for you as you approach your surgery. I know you must be so very hopeful that in the near future you could be carrying your and James' child in your womb. Your positive attitude and unwavering faith are going to be greatly rewarded, I just know it!!! Please keep us updated and let us know how we can specifically pray for y'all! Love you!!!

Anonymous said...

We are praying with you guys. We are believe for total healing, and a precious baby very soon!!!

mandal said...

This is awesome news!! Praying for complete healing and a new baby soon!!