Sunday, November 9, 2008

Truth or Lies??

Just a warning this is going to be a rambling blogg. So most of you know that James and I have tried for years to have children and have come close a couple of times. I know that one glorious day God will give me the deepest desire of my heart. We have lost two babies in nine months and all I can say is what a blessing!! At the time it sure did not feel like a blessig but it was. There are so many times through the week when I see children that sometimes my heart just aches so badley and other times it's great birth control. That makes me laugh! I learned a long time ago to never say my child will never...that comes back and bites you in the butt!! So anyways, there are many times that I ask God to just send someone to encourage me and everytime I ask He does. And even when I don't ask He sends someone. Like this morning at church. During the song "Break Free" Fred Watson came up to me and really blessed my heart. He is the sweetest old man you will ever meet. All Fred said was that a verse of that song says "We are holding on, holding on to your (God's) love." Fred said that the Lord told him to tell me to keep holding on to God's love and not to give up. And that I had started to believe that my womb was barron. And God is telling me that my womb is NOT barron but infact VERY fruitful!! So stop saying that we can't have children and get ready for them to come. What an amazing encouraging word. It always blesses my heart when I feel so desperate that I feel my God right next to me, but when I "feel" fine and not at a low moment He is still encouraging me. So needless to say I feel it in my heart and my soul that my children are coming very soon!! I just can't wait to see what kind of men and women of God these kidos will be. So enough rambling for me and sorry if this makes no sense for you but it makes perfect sense to me!!

6 comments:

Leslie said...

It makes perfect sense!! I believe with you that your babies are coming soon! Sometimes I almost feel guilty because I have had no problem in the baby making department and knowing that a few of my dear friends have not yet had babies and they so badly want them, it just makes me so grateful. You are such an inspiration and you will be a fantastic mother!

Watts Family said...

We are believing with you guys. You are meant to have children, and God would never make that the desire of your heart if he didn't intend on giving it to you. You will be such a wonderful mother. I can't wait!!

Kelli Archer said...

Your "rambling" touched my heart so much! And, yes, it makes absolute perfect sense! You are in my prayers!

Karl and Liz said...

oh miss Jennifer, I am in agreement with fred! Soon!!!!!!!!
Psalm 10:17
You hear, O LORD, the desire of the afflicted; you encourage them, and you listen to their cry......

Jessie said...

just want you to know that i will be praying for you. it saddens my heart to hear of those who have babies in heaven that they've never met. but, i know that i have hope in the knowledge that i will meet my own lost baby there someday, as will you! i will be praying that God will fulfill your desires and more very soon!

mandal said...

Yes, I believe with you that babIES are coming! I know that y'all will be the most awesome of parents!!