Surgery...

Last week I had my right shoulder surgery and it was a little more then I expected. I had a slap tear and then once my Dr. took a closer look at my shoulder, he realized that the actual ball was no longer in the socket. So after my surgery he told James that my rehab was going to be real fun...haha!

I've needed to have this surgery for a while and thankfully I love my Dr. He is so great that he will be doing surgery on my left shoulder in October...haha!! James and I talked about which shoulder to do first and thought it might be better to do my dominate arm first just in case I didn't want to get the other one done. I haven't had a lot of pain unless I move my shoulder in a way that I know I'm not suppose to, like trying to dress Farrah. My right shoulder is higher then my left and the movement feels so foreign to me. I had no idea my shoulder was out of its socket and it feels so unnatural for it to be in place.

When we got home I went to bed and crashed all day and then that evening we discovered that our AC went out at home. I was in such a fog that I really don't remember much but being loaded up by my brother and LaJuana, and headed to Levelland to my parents house. They were out of town that weekend so it worked out great. Lance and LaJuana were such a great help to me that night. Shawna helped with Farrah during the day. She took Farrah the night before and then took her swimming and then took her to the park. Farrah had so much fun that I don't think she was ready to come home.

Needless to say, this week has been very interesting. Having only one good arm with a VERY active two year old is a big challenge. The hardest part is not really being able to hold Farrah. Farrah has been such a trooper. She has truly blessed my heart this week. She has been the sweetest thing! She saw my staples for the first time and said "Oh mommy....I kiss you booboo!" I've been asking/telling her that she needs to be a helper. She has done great with helping me with a lot of different things this week. The biggest challenge this week has been her car seat!

Having only one arm this past week I have learned a few things about myself. I am learning patience, how to ask for help, and to slow down. I have always known that I'm not a patient person but this week its really been put to the test. Not with James or Farrah but with myself. I have always been a person who did the best I could. Not being able to do my best was been really frustrating for me. Not being able to cook, clean and bath my own child much less bath my own self was really hard.

So not being able to do things my self, I found myself having to ask for help. James has been amazing!! He has had to dress me, do my hair and help me even shower. It has brought a lot of laughter and some tears (when it comes to my hair). We've had some great friends and family really step up and help us by cooking us dinner and helping with Farrah. I've even had to call upon friends to straighten my hair...haha!!

The most important thing that I've needed to learn is to slow down. If you know me at all, you know that I LOVE being busy. This week has been such a busy week for us. I've had two funerals, doctor appointments, physical therapy and so many more things. By Friday, I was worn out and now I'm battling a summer cold......great!! I always know when I've done to much cause I usually end up getting sick. I'm excited about this week because I am choosing to slow down and play with Farrah before she starts school next week.

Thank you all who have helped me this past week! James is very glad he didn't have to cook any this week!

I found this picture that James took of me and Farrah....I have no idea when he took this.